Do what exactly, you ask? You can do those things that you have been dreaming about. Those plans… those goals… those conversations. It’s true! You are capable. You are gifted! You have more potential on the inside of you than you even realize! God created you and He created you well. Sure, you may not be great at everything. In fact you may be downright horrible at some things. That is okay! God gave you specific traits that you will need. He gave you unique talents. He molded you exactly the way you need to be to do those things He has prepared for you to do.
Easier said than done though, right!? I get it! I am here to tell MYSELF that I CAN DO IT TOO! You see I have a very hard time gettin’ er done sometimes. I have the motivation, I have the desire and I even have the ideas. However, when it comes down to it, I feel very incapable, nervous and defeated before I even begin.
Honestly it has been like this for as long as I can remember. One memory stands out in particular. It was grade 5 and I was appointed a lead role in the school play. They handed out the scripts and everyone gladly accepted their parts. I was shocked! I didn’t sign up for this! The teacher just decided who they wanted to be in the play and assumed we would comply. The rest of the students were to dress up as clowns and stand off to the side as a group.
I took my script home, read it over and thought THERE IS NO WAY I CAN DO THIS! I can’t remember all these lines, I can’t get up in front of all these people. No way, I just can’t do it! I went and spoke with the teacher the next day and handed back my script. I’m sure he tried to persuade me, however all I remember is that he gave me only one other option, and that was to be a clown. I GLADLY accepted. I got a really cute outfit, wore my hair in some braids and felt completely comfortable with my role on the day of the play. That is until, I saw my classmates who took the acting roles up on the stage beaming with confidence. They did great, a couple lines forgotten here and there, but it was no big deal. All of a sudden I sensed regret. Maybe I could have done it. I could have at least tried…. No, instead I chose to be a mute clown… sure I looked cute, but was anyone even looking my way. I had no voice, I had no influence, I had no real meaningful contribution to the school play. Of course my thoughts may not have gone that deep back then, but through my adult years when I have found myself faced with fear of stepping out I often remind myself of this play.
How does this apply to your life? What crossroads are you facing right now? Are you going to take the safe but silent path and end up a bystander in the main act of your life? Or are you going to take that step to do something you never thought you could do before? Are you willing to be that person that you’ve always longed to be, but too nervous to admit?
I wish I could say I have overcome all feelings of uncertainty but unfortunately they show up more often then I would like. I often want to throw in the towel before I even pick it up. (That’s a whole other blog post on it’s own).
What I am continually learning is that I must push past my insecurities and just do it!
The writer of Hebrews (12:2) encourages us to fix our eyes on the Author of our Faith, Jesus Christ. When we focus more on the perfection of our creator than our self, we see less of our inabilities and we find our confidence in Him.
WHAT AREAS DO YOU STRUGGLE IN? WHATEVER IT IS, DON’T ALLOW IT TO HOLD YOU BACK. DON’T BE A SILENT BYSTANDER IN YOUR OWN LIFE.
For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.